What a night

Tonight was going as planned until around 6pm, Matthew got sick. He has been doing this often. He will get sick a few times and then all is good for about a week or so. Then he gets sick again.
God showed me something tonight through this. The devil is not wanting me to do good...he wants me to fail and not do as God wants me to. God tells me in His word that I need to stay faithful to Him and trust Him through ALL things and so I shall trust Him through this chapter in my life with Matthew. I am making him an appt. with a doctor tomorrow to see if we can determine if this is acid reflux. My prayers are that God is in control and that even though I do not understand, He does.

Isn't it amazing how God shows you His will? I just love it! Something as simple as opening up the Word and just browsing, then BAM! I know what He is expecting from me!

A Life Changing Year

God sure has alot in store for me and my family this year. Without going into the juicy details that most would love for me to share, I will just say that you will be meeting a new Jackie Grim very soon. I am very excited but scared at the same time. God is changing what is bad in my life and adding the good into my life.
For 28 years I have struggled with who I am. What 28 year old do you know that does not even know how they like there steak cooked? Or what is there real favorite color? Or (to go deeper) what is god's purpose for them? I know, some 50 year olds still don't know what is God's purpose for them. But, I refuse to wait that long.
I am opening myself up to renewed friendship and moving forward. I want to be the outgoing person who just won't shut up! I want people to tell me to shut up! LOL (Kevin does, so I think he would beg to differ)
But to get back to what my title of this thread is.....
God spoke to me and told me this would be a year of change. At first I was thinking, ok...yeah I need to quit smoking...then ...hmmm.. maybe homeschool. Without Kevin on board to that, it is a no way buddy! Then, I started to wait on God. (I know 2008 is only 16 days young) But, he is already showing me what needs to be changed and has given me such promise for tomorrow. I am so thankful for the first time in my life for friendship. It is a blessing that God gives you...even if it comes up to you without you knowing it! :) God is so great huh? I just cannot wait (even though.....yup I am scared) for the new Jackie Grim to shine through!

A new light!

Ya know, so many times I allow other people to change who I am. I allow them to make me into a person whom I do not like. Jealous, yes I can be. Rude, yup...been there.
We all fall short right? We all are sinners saved by God's amazing grace! So that means what? To me, it means that we all make mistakes. But what else? We all need to forgive each other without even the other person asking for forgiveness! That is key! When someone does harm to you, why must you take that and make more of it? Do you understand? We always want to make more of what we have. That includes a bad situation. Someone is upset with someone else, so what do we do? Try to fix it! Why???? That is not your situation, that is there's.
Ok, did anything I just wrote make any sense? I hope so. Basically all I was trying to say is that you need to pay attention to what matters most, your family, yourself and most of all, you love for the great and almighty God! God matters, nothing else! Who cares if someone doesn't like you, so what! lol

Also, here is my myspace account link for anyone who is out there!
http://www.myspace.com/jackielynn1979

Have a great week!
Jackie :)

Another post

I really am clueless when it comes to naming these posts!

Life has been really going well lately. Financially speaking, very well. God has overly blessed us with more than enough! I feel so happy! It seems like for the first time in 7 years, we can afford to bless our children with a Christmas that is totally from our own means. I am very excited!

Just an update on my quitting smoking...
I gave up for a while. I just stopped trying. I think I was just thinking that I would never quit anyways and I am really scared. But, I am not giving up anymore. I am logging my cigarettes and so far, I am only smoking 19 a day. Much less than I thought! So that is very good. I am planning on smoking one less each day. Even if I stay at smoking a certain amount each day, lets say like 5 a day, for a time period I would be very proud of myself. To me, quitting is a process in my mind. I need to get over the feeling of needing one. I find myself running to them to often, I need to run to the Lord first!

I do have a request for prayer for any of you other bloggers out there. I have been having a hard time with my eyes. They are not opening right. Very sensitive to light and worse in the morning when I first wake up. They are much better in the evening and when I am indoors. This does make a problem when I am trying to get 2 kids ready in the morning for school and I cannot even open my eyes enough to see. It is like the feeling you get when you are in the dark for a long time then all of a sudden the bright lights are turned on.

Thank you :)

Friday Oct. 5th

I am just so happy that this week is over!

I spent the first 3 days in the doctors office with Jonny and Matthew. After our camping trip last weekend, both of them got sick. Jonny had bronchitis and Matthew had a cold. Today, they are much better.
I spent my morning out with my sister. I took her out to breakfast and then we went shopping at IKEA. She got a new bedroom set! I am excited because that means I get her old one! lol
This weekend is not all glamour here. Kevin is working on the brakes tomorrow and finishing up my sisters bathroom. Then he is helping a friend weatherproof her home.
I will have him to myself tomorrow night! Movie night!

Tonight we are going to Apple bees! Kevin wins gift certificates all the time so he wants to treat us out! lol
Sunday is church. We have been kinda slacking on our attendance at church. Not totally our fault. We did take a break last weekend due to our camping trip, but we have been either sick or Kevin has been working. One thing that I have found out is that it is really hard for me to take all 3 boys to church without Kevin. It is funny how God has that special person picked out for you. Kevin is my brain. He just knows exactly what to do when it comes to handling the kids. All I have to do is give him a look, and he jumps! ;)

Ok, so I am getting a little frustrated right now. Matthew is not going for his nap today. It is already 3:30 and he is just talking and playing in his crib. We are suppost to go out to dinner tonight and this boy won't nap! I am really hoping that he does or we may need to cancel or order in. I don't think the people around us would like a screaming baby while they enjoy there food!

Jackie :)

It has been a while since I have posted anything on here

Maybe because I wonder if anyone reads it, but I say "What the hay, why not! lol"

I can truly say that God has totally shown all his changes that he had in store for Kevin and I. We moved (of course, I think I have posted that already), have changed roles at our church. That was such a good thing. Now, I can put all my focus on my family and best off, I have learned to say NO! I think it is making some people upset, but I have to not care and do what God wants. Ummm....let's see...... oh, Jonny is doing so well in school. I was honestly thinking that I would be homeschooling him by now, but he is just loving it and so far, I have not received anything about bad behavior. I saw the teachers aid today at the school and she just was telling me how good Jonny is. PTL!
My mornings have been very relaxing. I have needed this. Matthew goes down for a nap around 11am so from 11-12 every weekday, I have to myself. I have been reading, cleaning, playing games online and just enjoying the blessing God has given me.

This weekend we are going away camping. It should be fun. Maybe.... I don't know how much fun it will be for a 14 month old baby though. It will be chilly at night but Kevin and I have both agreed that we have the extra funds to do this and that we desperately need to get away for a few days. Some stuff has happened and we really just need to get away from my side of the family lol! So instead, we are going to be around his side, the side I have problems with LOL! But God keeps putting me around them for a reason. I am really hoping that I can witness to them. But they are a tough bunch. Very tough.
So, yes, no church this Sunday but Kevin agrees that it is best to miss it.

For what I can think of, that is it!

Have a blessed day!
Jackie :)

Alot to do, no time to do it

Seriously, I have no time anymore.
Life has just taken ahold of me, and now I can't seem to grab it back.

I was out of town last week attending my grandmothers funeral. I was not close to her at all. Matter of fact, I did not even cry at the funeral. I went to be a support to my father and my aunts and uncles. Was it worth a 10 hour drive one way? I still don't know??????

During that time, Kevin stayed home with the kids. He missed me just as I missed hime and my kids. But it showed alot to me. How important family is, how much love I have for my husband and just the importance of telling someone you love them.

I met up with the cousin Bobbi. She is the youngest daughter to my Uncle Johnny. The one who lost his daughter 2 years ago. She is in desperate need of someone in her life. My aunt and uncle both work jobs that cause them to be out of town ALOT and well, my cousin Jay is not much help. So I have been praying for God to show me a way to reach out. So far, I am making plans to attend her graduation. I was not planning on going, but I think it would be best that I go.

Alot has happenned. Some things that I can't talk about. Just alot of change, even with my rolls at church. Much to see!
I can speak about my roll in the nursery. I am stepping down there. I just don't have the time anymore. I have been totally neglecting my family due to my commitments at church. And well, my family must come first. So I stepped down, but will not offically until July 1st.
VBS is another concern to me. I have not done much yet for it and don't see when I can work on it. That is something I am praying about and awaiting on the Lord. The only time I can think of being able to work on vbs would be around bedtime. I have seriously never been so busy before. I even forgot about Matthews check up/shots appt last month. And that was an appt he needed to go to bc I was late on the shots. This is getting out of hand and I know I need to set up my priorities.