Kinda want to revise what I posted a few days ago

I am still quitting!

But that will be the last time I refer to it as quitting.

Now I see it as going back to that moment before my first cigarette.

See, non smokers do have have to need of a cigarette. And on Monday, I will not have the need anymore.

So....on Monday...I will officially be a NON SMOKER!
I will have the feelings of "needing a cigarette". And get this......all you friends of mine...ones who have smoked or not......

I CAN"T WAIT FOR THE FEELINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Instead of them making me need a cigarette, they are CONFIRMING TO ME THAT I AM NO LONGER HAVING ONE!!!!!!!!!!!

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EXICTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will be on here on Monday.

I am still asking for prayer.....Everyone needs prayer. Pray that my mind stays focused on the "prize" of being a nonsmoker and not my "old" addiction to nicotine.

God Bless and have a great weekend!

Jackie

It is coming to an end

I know I have talked about this in the past, but It is happening now.

I HAVE to quit smoking.

For the last few nights I have been waking up in the middle of the night with a hard wheezing and bad cough...caused by smoking. I feel like there is alot of weight on my chest, and even my inhaler and the kid's nebulizer is not working.

I have to admit, I am scared that something might be already wrong with me and I might be too late. I just want to see my kids grow up. I want to be healthy. I want to feel good throughout the day. I want my energy back.

But, I am scared. Afraid of being mean, moody and so on. But I am quitting with the patch and gum.

Right now I smoke 2 packs a day. I am usually having a cigarette every 20-25 minutes.

But I am planning on recording my cigarettes per day in the evening on my blog.

My quit date in Monday September 22nd.

I WILL NOT SMOKE PAST THAT DATE AGAIN!

Dear Mr. Obama

Ever have times like this?

So irritated, so fusterated so annoyed??


I am feeling that way lately. I can't go into "Details" but it is driving me nuts.

I can't wait for a few things to happen soon. But I think it takes a little motivation on my part....

First of all, I want to...have a desire to....get a job.
I have been that "Stay at home mom" for over 7 years now. And I am getting tired of it.
It has become boring and well...lame.

So I am going to look into community colleges to attend and a career to get into that I see interesting.

I see other mothers like me when the kids are all in school full time, just sitting at home bored. And even though I have Matthew, it will only be a few years until preschool starts and then Kindergarten.

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On another note.

Matthew has surgery yesterday to have ear tubes placed into his ears. It was hard seeing my baby like that, but he is doing great now. I had to call Kevin home early though, because Matthew just would not listen yesterday and was walking around then falling b/c of the meds.

Edge

Yesterday we traded out our old car and got this new one. It feels so nice to have a new car. And it is just beautiful inside and out. The kids love it and same with Kevin and I.
It is a 2008 Ford Edge SE.
:)

Let the countdown begin!

18!!!!!!!!!!

That is it...18 more days until school starts!

Okay, I am that mom who cries every year when my babies go off into the world without me....but after this trying summer vacation...I am SOOOOOOOOOOO ready for school to begin. It helps that they are both going to be in school full time this year! It will just be Matthew and I Monday thru Friday from 8:15am until 4:15pm. I can't wait to have some alone time during the day and to have some bonding time with Matthew. I have not had that with him!

So again................ 18 more days!!!!!!

Sad days

On Sunday, we received a phone call telling us that Kevin's Grandmother had passed away.

I have known her for 12 years and until her memory started to fail, I had been getting close to her. It is sad to imagine how the family is going to function without Grandma Grim.

The funeral is tomorrow. (Sigh)