It is coming to an end

I know I have talked about this in the past, but It is happening now.

I HAVE to quit smoking.

For the last few nights I have been waking up in the middle of the night with a hard wheezing and bad cough...caused by smoking. I feel like there is alot of weight on my chest, and even my inhaler and the kid's nebulizer is not working.

I have to admit, I am scared that something might be already wrong with me and I might be too late. I just want to see my kids grow up. I want to be healthy. I want to feel good throughout the day. I want my energy back.

But, I am scared. Afraid of being mean, moody and so on. But I am quitting with the patch and gum.

Right now I smoke 2 packs a day. I am usually having a cigarette every 20-25 minutes.

But I am planning on recording my cigarettes per day in the evening on my blog.

My quit date in Monday September 22nd.

I WILL NOT SMOKE PAST THAT DATE AGAIN!