Sunday, May 3, 2009

So, I did it!

For the first time in MONTHS, I attended church.

I actually enjoyed it. Alot! It was amusing, interesting and educational at the same time.

The sermon was taught on Truth.

When the pastor went into our sins, it did hit me and made me see that I am no different than anyone. My opinions are just that, opinions. My sin are just that, sins. And the sooner I see them, the sooner I can be saved from them. The one thing that I just never got was when I would be told to walk away from my sin. It was like "How can I do that? And if I can just do that, then why did Jesus die?"
I think I may be right when I say that it is more about recognizing the sins and facing them. Anger is my biggest sin. I get so made sometimes that I wish people would die. And to be told that it makes me a murder in God's eyes bc of what he told us in the Word, is a shocker. So to see it, face it and try my best to change it is what God wants. He knows my heart. He knows that I don't really want someone to die (Maybe move to England or something LOL) and that I just am so upset and sad. And that I truly just need a shoulder to cry on. And yes, I never turn to Jesus.
I have a hard time turning to him bc his shoulder is not present in front of me. I have to ...I really don't know what I have to do?

Feels weird, but I feel like I am starting over with the Christian walk. Like I have wiped my slate clean and now I am back at the beginning.

But I really liked this new church! And better yet, the kids loved it!