When everyone sees only our faults, God sees our possibilities

What a true statement that is above from Joyce Meyer. I am constantly facing others telling me my faults, almost on a daily basis. But it can be so reassuring to know that God thinks of me in a different light. Plus, it is only what He thinks that matters!
To have someone who thinks and see so much positive things out of you makes you feel so loved.

I always see myself through someone else's eyes. I allow what other people say or even what I "think" they are thinking of me to judge what I think of myself....hope that makes sense.
But I love this new light on myself. Through some people that God has given me, I have made some big steps forward from being that doormat that everyone "needed" to being myself. My attitude has changed from being very concerned about what someone might think to the "this is what you get and just deal". I do not find myself being mean about it, but there is cases where I feel I have no other option. So, I just trust in the Lord and move forward.
I am so tired of living for the past. The thinking of "if I do this then maybe the way we were 5 years ago might be again"....it just don't work like that!

Ya know, it takes time when you are constantly being put down because you are not living up to someone else's expectations. I am 28 years old and refuse to be treated like a 12 year old anymore. It just can't happen anymore!

And it shall come to pass Genesis 4:14

From the mouth of Joyce Meyer:
Life is a continual process in which everything is constantly changing. If we can grasp that truth, it will help us make it through the difficult times in which we find ourselves. It will also help us not to hold on too tightly to the good times, thinking, "if I ever lose all this, I just can't make it."
God wants us to enjoy all of life - not just its destination but also the trip itself.

For over a year now, God has been showing both Kevin and I some "signs" that a great change will be taking place. I think if you were to look back through my posts, there is one that stats that change is going to happen this year.
Well, alot of change has been happening. Maybe to much change for comfort. It is funny how we do not like change, that is make us feel uncomfortable, but at the same time, that is something that is a constant by living. The weather changes sometimes in a moment, people change...they get older..pass away...have children, and so on. Our living environments change. We move homes, we move out of our parents house. We grow....and when we are growing weather it be in the Lord or just living on this earth, we are changing. But at the same time, we do not like it. We always look back to the "Good ol' days" and miss them. But when we do, we are missing out of what is happening today.

We have decided to follow to calling from God and change our worship place. This was a HUGE step for Kevin, for he is not comfortable with any type of change (with the exception of changing the dinner menu around LOL). But, we could not hide from God any longer. He was telling us for a long time that we are needed somewhere else. That our qualities can be used somewhere. Now, is the adventure of finding where!
Like Joyce Meyer said..... God wants us the enjoy life....all of it. Even the trip! So I am prepared to enjoy this trip He has planned for us! What even made this feel more of being in God's Will was the reaction from the kids. They were really excited about going on a new "adventure"! That was just like having icing on a cake to me. It confirmed to me that God does want us to move on. And that we were always looking to the past and could not accept the future or even the here and now where we were.

I have to express my feelings

My love is not here. He left this morning for Florida. He won't be back until late Thursday night.
I feel so empty without him. I am just so sad.
I have spent the whole day crying. Also, I cried all day yesterday. I just miss him so much. But at the same time I am happy for him that he is able to have a break.
I have to come up with some stuff to do this week because I have been so lonely today without him.
Now that it is evening, it is getting worse. I just miss him.

The up's and down's of an 18 month old!

Today I had a dentist appointment for Joseph and Jonathon. Just a normal cleaning but I had to take Matthew along with me. All week long I had been dreading this day just because my 18 month old baby boy has turned into the terrible 2 child!!!
So, I am standing there, guarding the door to block Matthew from getting his own personal cleaning at the dentist's and a women sitting in the waiting room starts disiplining my 18 month old child as if I am not capable of doing so! I was in a rage inside and just prayed my way out of saying something I would regret and just smiled instead. I mean...COME ON! He is 18 months old and he don't quite get what you are saying when you say...."Shhhhh you are being too loud!" And saying to me "Sometimes they listen better to someone other than there mother" Grrrr

Ok, so my child was not screaming in a fit or anything distrubing. He was just happy! Jumping and singing and talking. Just loud...LOL :) It was kinda cute thinking back on it. Some people just do not know how to let it be.

Now another short one with Matthew.
Today we missed our daily "Sesame Street" but I recorded it through Dish Network. So Matthew wakes up from his nap and starts talking to the tv and says "LLLMOO" "MAMA...LLMO" Ohhhh it was so cute! Then I turn it on for him and he says " MAMA...BABA...LLLMO!!!" Then he sees Elmo and says with such happiness "LLLLMMMOOO" I think he is in love with Elmo!

I have been tagged!

I was tagged by Aimee to play. The game is called Scattergories. Use the first letter of your name and find words with that letter. The number of letters in your name determines how many people you can tag.

What is your name? Jackie

4 letter word: June

Vehicle: Jaguar

City: Jacksonville, Florida

Boy's name: Joshua

Girl's name: Jessica

Movie: Juno

Occupation: Jailer

Something you wear: Jogging Shoes

Celebrity: Jackie Robinson

Food: Juice

Something found in a kitchen: Juicer

Something found in a bathroom: Junky plunger LOL

Reason for being late: Jury Duty LOL

Cartoon character: Jem

Something you shout: Jerk!!!

Animal: Jumping Kangaroos LOL

Body part: Joint
Word to describe you: Joking!

I am tagging Tim

What a night

Tonight was going as planned until around 6pm, Matthew got sick. He has been doing this often. He will get sick a few times and then all is good for about a week or so. Then he gets sick again.
God showed me something tonight through this. The devil is not wanting me to do good...he wants me to fail and not do as God wants me to. God tells me in His word that I need to stay faithful to Him and trust Him through ALL things and so I shall trust Him through this chapter in my life with Matthew. I am making him an appt. with a doctor tomorrow to see if we can determine if this is acid reflux. My prayers are that God is in control and that even though I do not understand, He does.

Isn't it amazing how God shows you His will? I just love it! Something as simple as opening up the Word and just browsing, then BAM! I know what He is expecting from me!

A Life Changing Year

God sure has alot in store for me and my family this year. Without going into the juicy details that most would love for me to share, I will just say that you will be meeting a new Jackie Grim very soon. I am very excited but scared at the same time. God is changing what is bad in my life and adding the good into my life.
For 28 years I have struggled with who I am. What 28 year old do you know that does not even know how they like there steak cooked? Or what is there real favorite color? Or (to go deeper) what is god's purpose for them? I know, some 50 year olds still don't know what is God's purpose for them. But, I refuse to wait that long.
I am opening myself up to renewed friendship and moving forward. I want to be the outgoing person who just won't shut up! I want people to tell me to shut up! LOL (Kevin does, so I think he would beg to differ)
But to get back to what my title of this thread is.....
God spoke to me and told me this would be a year of change. At first I was thinking, ok...yeah I need to quit smoking...then ...hmmm.. maybe homeschool. Without Kevin on board to that, it is a no way buddy! Then, I started to wait on God. (I know 2008 is only 16 days young) But, he is already showing me what needs to be changed and has given me such promise for tomorrow. I am so thankful for the first time in my life for friendship. It is a blessing that God gives you...even if it comes up to you without you knowing it! :) God is so great huh? I just cannot wait (even though.....yup I am scared) for the new Jackie Grim to shine through!