Thursday, February 8, 2007

A New day

Other than poems, I have not really been writing much lately.

It is time for me to start a new day!

As I posted in one of my previous posts, I am wanting to become closer to God this year. I want to know what he expects out of me as his child.
In our home group, we were asked to spend a few minutes a day meditating on the Lord.
Well, with much work on that, I was failing. I just could not hear him or feel him. I received nothing. Until Monday night.
Kevin and I have been debating weather or not to home school our children. Well, we have looked at a lot of books, and online studies about the issue. After we prayed out of our search, I did not feel good. Just felt confused. I want, better.... WE want to do God's will. But feel confused on what that is.
In the word it tells us to find out his will we need to:

1. Pray
2. Aline it up in the Word
3. Talk to elders in the church
4. Pray some more

Well, I really felt that we have done all 3 of those.
So, as I was asked by my home group leader, I got into my prayer closet. The shower!
I turned on my praise and worship and started to humble myself to him.
See, during this search about homeschooling a lot of negatives came out about me. Like if I could stick to a schedule, if just because I had a bad day would I still school? Another one was if I was qualified enough to.
Well I took it all to Him. Humbled myself to him.
And in the end, I heard him. I finally heard Jesus speaking to me. To my heart.
This is what he told me:
To remember Proverbs 3:5-6 , which tells us to trust in him, and follow his paths.
And that HE is my strength. That if it is His will for our children to be home schooled, he would give me the strength to get through the tough days.
But I am still not knowing if it is His will?
It is a hard one to tell. I know it is in my heart to teach my own children. I feel it as a calling of mine. Since I was a little girl all I wanted to do is be a Mommy and teach!
So, to whomever reads this, could you please pray with Kevin and I, that we are open to His will, and allow him to direct our paths!

Just a quick question for all you readers!

When you trust in God, do you just trust in him while you are going down that bad dirt road? Or do you allow him on the smooth pavement also?

2 comments:

Tim said...

I'm praying, Jackie. I'm praying.....

Christy said...

Whille im a huge supporter of Homeschooing AND also think its ok to send your child to school elsewhere I also think your saying your being led to teach your children at home
well you Teach them everyday wether it be manners or about JEsus I feel we are all the best teachers we can be every day no matter if it involves math and reading or other life lessons